Today I had a go at normal life.
A crafty Sunday.
Almost instantly I knew I had undertaken too much. I overfilled my shopping basket in the first shop I went to. Why do I never learn?
I should have done the sensible thing of taking that load to the car but instead I decided to plow on with my shopping.
By the time I got home the codeine had worn off and I needed a rest. After I had done a couple of crafty bits I needed a nap.
What a ridiculous life I have.
Thank fuck that the pain is still currently letting me sleep. I’d be so much more grumpy if it was ruining that for me too!
There was a brief moment where I almost had a meltdown tonight. I’d bought new batteries for the TENS for a bit of relief but then couldn’t find the bloody machine. Looking for it was wearing me out and getting me all wound up.
I finally found it and tbh it’s not the magical quick fix my brain had falsely remembered.
Yeah it’s distracting and weirdly comforting but I’m still in pain and sad it’s happening still.
When will this actually come to an end?
I’m sorry for whinging a lot lately. I’m just getting quite down and need to vent it so I’m not complaining to everyone face to face daily.
I don’t like people knowing I’m suffering because they look at me different. I try not to let it affect my work. I don’t want to be treated like a cripple. I just want to get on with my life.
I know this makes me a hypocrite but it’s different writing it here. Those who read this are choosing to do so. I’m not forcing you to read nor care.
Let’s end this on a happier note. Look at these wonderful baby shower bits I created.
Hopefully at the very least I can make other people happy x